Monday, March 15, 2010

9 Deadly Words Used By A Woman

1) Fine
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2) Five Minutes
If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3) Nothing
This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4) Go Ahead
This is a dare, not permission. Don’t Do It!

5) Loud Sigh
This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot
and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6) That’s Okay
This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That’s okay means she wants to think long and hard before
deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7) Thanks
A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you’re welcome. (I want to add in a clause here – This is true, unless she says ‘Thanks a lot’ – that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say ‘you’re welcome’ . that will bring on a ‘whatever’).

8 ) Whatever
Is a woman’s way of saying F– YOU!

9) Don’t worry about it, I got it
Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This
will later result in a man asking ‘What’s wrong?’ For the woman’s response refer to #3.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Personality Type Report
Your Personality Preferences
INTROVERT
While you may not be anti-social, you do need (and deserve) your private time and space to retreat from the world. Unlike extroverts, you need to develop a concept of the world or some aspect of it before experiencing it. Too much socializing may sap your energies. Your energies are derived from exploring the inner world of ideas, impressions and pure thought.
INTUITIVE
While you do process information through your senses you add a twist to your processing by relying on intuition and serendipity. You look for undercurrents of meaning and abstractions in what you experience physically. You do not just see things just as they are, but as what they could be. While you may rely on common sense at times, you trust inspiration far more.
PERCEIVING
You like to have as much information as possible before making a decision. Putting off a final decision until the last moment does not make you uncomfortable. Indeed once a decision is made, a course plotted, you may feel a bit uneasy, because you feel bound to a certain course of action. You would much prefer to wait and see what happens. You enjoy the opportunity to improvise. Commitments are not etched in stone to you, and are changeable.
FEELING
You make decisions subjectively based upon your values and what is important to you. How people will be affected by your decisions is important to you. You are likely to make decisions based upon what you feel is acceptable and agreeable rather than what is logical. Your truths are founded in your values and those of the society you live in. It is important to remember that we are discussing how you evaluate data and make decisions, and that you rely on your feelings to do so in no way implies you are overly emotional.
Your Personality Type
Introvert/Intuitive/Feeling/Perceiving

You are devoted and compassionate. You have a well-developed distaste for rules, orders and schedules. You are a natural born learner and can get so absorbed in your projects that you forget those around you. You are passionate about your beliefs and love ideals. You have very high standards for yourself. You are very creative, sensitive, reserved, and introspective. You respect the values of others and expect them to respect yours.

In relationships you are loyal and totally committed. You prefer a few deep relationships over a horde of acquaintances. Because you are somewhat reserved, you do best in one on one and small group situations. When you feel comfortable, you can be very entertaining and capricious. You are nurturing and supportive by nature. You greatest social challenge is to balance your need to withdraw into your inner-world with your need to keep a strong connection with those you care for. .

Famous People of Your Type:

Homer, Virgil, Mary, mother of Jesus, St. John, St. Luke, William Shakespeare, Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, A. A. Milne, Laura Ingalls Wilder, Helen Keller, Carl Rogers, Fred Rogers, Dick Clark, Donna Reed, Jacqueline Kennedy Onasis, Neil Diamond, Tom Brokaw, James Herriot, Annie Dillard, James Taylor, Julia Roberts, Scott Bakula, John F. Kennedy, Jr.

Occupations Suited to Your Type Include:

Actor, architect, artist, composer, editor, translator, journalist, librarian, musician, occupational therapist, psychotherapist, educator, researcher, scientist, and writer.

http://www.psychjuice.com/per/pers.php
Your Life Path Number is 9
Your Life Path Number represents the path you should take through life and the talents and skills you have to make your journey a rewarding one.
A 9 Life Path will lead you to look at all with love, compassion and tolerance. You will explore the connection that exists between all the things in our universe. You will learn to let go of your own desires to serve the better good of all of us. In whatever field you choose, your endeavors will help heal the wounds life inflicts on those around you. It is your mission to make our world a gentler, kinder place for all of us.
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Your Life Destiny Number is 9
Your Destiny Number sheds light on those things you must accomplish in your life to be fulfilled.
Your destiny is to learn how to love all of mankind without condition. You do truly want "peace on earth and good will toward man;" and will work to make those conditions a reality. Whether through some art form or your touch, you are destined to heal those who come into contact with you. For you, life's horizon is limitless.
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Your Soul Number is 8
Your Soul Number describes your deepest desires and dreams and the person you truly want to be.
You inner desire is to lead, to take control of the world around you. Since your talents lend themselves to this desire it is very likely your desires will be fully satisfied.
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Your Personality Number is 1
Your Personality Number reveals the "external you"--the personality traits others will know you by.
As is fitting with the number 1's prime directive to lead, those with a 1 personality number have the qualities of a natural born leader. They are the alphas of the pack and stand out in any group. They are confident, self-reliant and courageous. They are also blessed with a mind capable of formulating innovative solutions to old and new problems alike. As long as the 1 personality does not become overbearing and dogmatic, they should always find themselves in the position for which they were born: the head of the pack.
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Your Maturity Number is 9
Your Maturity Number reveals the person you will come to be--your true self.
Persons with a 9 Maturity Number do not always have an easy path before them. They must learn to balance their love for humanity with their own needs. Throughout your life you will heal and enlighten those around you. In your later years you will have mastered your healing techniques and learned to apply your compassion for others effectively. You will be able to look upon your life and see that you have been a great benefit to most who have had the good fortune to know you.
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Your Balance Number is 8
As long as your life is on an even or uplifting keel balance numbers are relatively dormant. However, in those times when your life is out of order your Balance Number can become central to resolving the turmoil you are experiencing. Your Balance Number reflects the traits you need to bring to the forefront in order the get through difficult periods with the least amount of damage or time wasted on negative influences.
A 8 Balance Number indicates you have considerable talents for leading during troubling times, so take the lead and guide all parties involved towards a fair solution. However, be careful to not become dictatorial. You cannot force others to accept your solution. The key is to use your creative talents to find a solution that is fair to all.
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The 4 Pinnacles
Pinnacles represent moments in your life in which you realize current goals and learn some of life's lessons. If you are at the beginning of a Pinnacle, then they can be used as a predictive tool to assist in managing your future. Your first Pinnacle begins at birth and last until around the age of 27. Your Second Pinnacle last through the next 9 year and the Third Pinnacle last for 9 years after the Second Pinnacle has passed. Your Fourth Pinnacle picks up where the Third Pinnacle ends and last throughout the rest of your life
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Your First Pinnacle Number is 3
You are at a time in life where the door to self-expression is ready to open. This should be a very creative period for you during which you also develop strong friendships and learn to speak from your heart.
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Your Second Pinnacle Number is 6
A 6 Pinnacle notes a time of love and devotion to friends and family, or possibly the building of a new family after a divorce. During this Pinnacle your energies will be focused on your home-life. You will nurture your loved ones and beautify your surroundings as much as possible. During this Pinnacle that which is in your heart will come to the forefront.
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Your Third Pinnacle Number is 9
A 9 Pinnacle means you are in a period where your love for your fellow man will be at its zenith. In this period you will play healer and inspirer to those around you. A 9 Pinnacle is never easy. You will be asked to sacrifice meeting your own needs for the good of others. You may experience the pain of loss, but in the end will be rewarded by fulfilling your soul's need to ease the pain of others.
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Your Fourth Pinnacle Number is 9
A 9 Pinnacle means you are in a period where your love for your fellow man will be at its zenith. In this period you will play healer and inspirer to those around you. A 9 Pinnacle is never easy. You will be asked to sacrifice meeting your own needs for the good of others. You may experience the pain of loss, but in the end will be rewarded by fulfilling your soul's need to ease the pain of others.
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The 4 Challenges
Challenges denote personal weaknesses and temptations you will have to overcome and strengths you will have to develop to fully realize your goals. The 4 Challenges have the same time frame as the 4 Pinnacles.
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Your First Challenge Number is 6
A 6 Challenge marks a period in which you will learn to balance the needs of your family with your own. You will learn that true nurturing can only come from your heart. Your idealistic views of marriage may be shaken some, but if you learn to temper them some you will be happier and more secure on the other side of this Challenge.
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Your Second Challenge Number is 6
A 6 Challenge marks a period in which you will learn to balance the needs of your family with your own. You will learn that true nurturing can only come from your heart. Your idealistic views of marriage may be shaken some, but if you learn to temper them some you will be happier and more secure on the other side of this Challenge.
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Your Third Challenge Number is 0
The 0 challenge means the choice of what you do with your life is entirely yours. Yours is an old soul--you've already struggled through all the challenges of the other numbers. Your reward for completing these Challenges is free will. You may face all or any of the challenges of the numbers 1 through 9. You may simply drift through life without a destination or goals. Or you may rise above the struggles of others and use this Challenge period to sculpt a life based on love, integrity, justice and vision. At first glance, this freedom to choose may seem like a vacation, but it isn't. Indeed, the gravity of the responsibility which comes with a 0 challenge is tremendous, because how you choose to address your 0 challenge will profoundly affect the lives of those around you, and, possibly, the entire world.
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Your Fourth Challenge Number is 3
The Challenge the number 3 puts before you is to learn to speak truly from your heart. You will have to overcome the negative traits of the number 3, which include superficiality, hyperbole, egocentrism, gossiping and disorganization.
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The 3 Cycles
Cycles occur in 28 year periods. The First Cycle last from birth through your 28th year and is called your Formative or Seed Cycle. The Second Cycle--your Productive or Fruit Cycle--begins at age 29 and last through your 56th year. The Third Cycle, your Harvest Cycle, begins with the coming of your 57th year and last throughout the rest of your life. Your Cycle Numbers tell you the lessons you must learn and goals you must meet to stay on your Life's Path and achieve your true destiny.
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Your First Cycle Number is 3
Your emphasis during this Cycle will be on unleashing your creativity. You will need to focus your energies to get all you can from this Cycle. The reward for traversing this Cycle successfully is a life full of friends and the coming to fruition of your creative talents.
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Your Second Cycle Number is 9
Those in a 9 Cycle will see their compassion and tolerance for others blossom. You will find satisfaction in putting the greater good for all ahead of your own needs. This is a cycle in which you will explore the depths of your love for your fellow man.
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Your Third Cycle Number is 6
A 6 Cycle denotes a period favorable for love and marriage. You will learn about commitment and responsibility to your loved ones. If you have had a failed marriage, this is a period to start anew. Regardless of the conditions you bring into this Cycle, this remains a period for the homebody to come out in you.
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Your Karmic Lesson Number(s) are/is 4 6 8
Karmic Lesson numbers reveal areas in which we need to grow. To become more complete, we need to give extra attention to these areas in this lifetime. If one of your 5 core numbers is the same as a Karmic Lesson Number the significance of the Karmic Lesson Number is reduced.
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A 4 Karmic Lesson Number is indicative of a need for direction in life. Although you may feel somewhat confused about why you are here, work to find your true path through this life.
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A 6 Karmic Lesson Number denotes an inability or reluctance to make commitments. Even when you do commit yourself to something it may be your nature to hold back any true passion for the commitment or relationship. Over time you might do well to slowly allow your passions to express themselves and put your heart into your commitments and relationships.
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A 8 Karmic Lesson Number points to a talent for making money that is not properly governed. You may experience tremendous swings in your financial status. This is because while you know how to make money, you also tend to be way too speculative and impulsive when dealing with matters of finance. Try and develop a more cautious approach to money matters and it is possible these swings in fortune will diminish.
The number 8 appears in your core numbers, so the the importance of this number is lessened.
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Your Lucky Number is 6
Your Personal Lucky Number does not change. This number will be lucky for you your entire life. Your luck derived from this number will be strongest when you are addressing events and issues related to the general meaning of the number. Lucky Numbers should not be relied on to constantly produce positive results, or make impulsive, high risk gambles. They simply mean that where they appear you have an edge. How large an edge is impossible to determine, but seems to increase with the number of occurrences your Lucky Number is be associated with a given event or issue.
Those with a Personal Lucky Number 6 will find their luck from the 6 strongest when the issue at hand concerns nurturing and the home. 6 is not a particularly strong number when dealing with finances. However it is very strong when the issue is true, romantic love.
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Your Signature Number is a 6
Signature numbers are based on how you sign your name. Your signature carries the power and the faults of one of the base 9 numbers. You may actually want to sign different documents with different signatures to reap the benefit of a particular number. For instance, if you are signing an agreement of partnership you might want to alter your signature to reflect the powers of the number 2.
The signature you entered is a 6. A 6 signature is very good for times when your are dealing with matters concerning family, housing, or community.
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Your Birthday Number is 9
This number is most influential between your 28th and 56th year. While it is not the most important number in your profile, it does have an effect on your Life's Path and Destiny.
You are idealistic and compassionate, generous and sensitive. At heart you are a humanitarian of the highest order.
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Your Personal Year Number is 6
This number tells you what is happening in your life this year. This number should be used to help you avoid setbacks and focus your energies on those areas of your life where you are most likely to achieve your goals.
This is a year in which you should try to balance your home life with your work life. Indeed, your family should take precedence over all other concerns. Care for those in your family who need your help, nurture any young ones, and move closer to your significant other.
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Your Personal Month Number is 8
This number tells you what is happening in your life this month. Use this number in the same way you would your Personal year number, but apply it only to the current month.
This is a time for you to take things seriously and ensure all aspects of your life are moving in Make time to be alone and allow yourself to evaluate where your life is going.
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Your Foundation Letter is C
Having a C Foundation Letter identifies someone who can bring levity and optimism to almost any situation.
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Your End Letter is A
Having an A End Letter denotes someone who is not a quitter. They will finish whatever task they have taken on with or without the help of others.
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Your First Vowel is O


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Monday, January 25, 2010

"Why did you let ______ overtake you?"
Somebody asked me this question.
Guess what was my answer...
"Because...because...I don't know."
I really don't know, and I don't know why I don't know. I am still pondering over it.

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Sorry is a big word. It comes with great responsibility, and I don't know if I am that responsible.

What others did to you, even if it is wrong, we should not repeat it. However, if the wrong things really did point out your weakness, accept it.

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I finally understand ________. We really have done our best of the best in that circumstance, but, nobody believes us. Put yourself into our shoes before you judge us.

Friday, January 15, 2010

What an awesome week!! Consecutively broken two 5k personal best in just a week's time!

On Wednesday training, I broke my 25:05 personal best to 24:58mins.
For today's training, I broke 24:58 personal best to 24:28mins.
WOOT!!!~

Hope that I can break my personal best again during next saturday's race!...Otherwise, my back, shoulders and abs will ache for nothing...*Cross fingers*

Sunday, January 10, 2010

In movies, in lifes, those revealed, are always the starting and the climax. Ending, always for us to decipher.

Happily ever after, or, dead? If you can decide the ending of the movie, why can't you do it the same for yours?

If you have the chance to press the "restart" button of your life, will you?
You might. I won't.
I love how god has shaped my life today into perfection. 酸甜苦辣,我都填过了。 You might be thousands of footsteps ahead of me, and I might be lagging behind compared to you, but, experiences of your fast-paced life can never be more than mine. At least I have done the basic things of life: sniffing at flowers and listening to the birds singing, have you? I have even enjoyed the moments when people have bossed their way past me to the front, have you?

No matter how exciting your life is, how many times you have been under a single spotlight, how many times you have outshone me, it cannot never be compared to my simple life.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

What a bad day I've had today!!! I was attacked by freaking lots of saliva !! *Faints* Yeah, saliva. I'm having a phobia for salivas now.

The problem is not only one teacher okay... Is TWO teachers eh! Somemore is consecutively one. The first teacher left the classroom, and I was like, PHEW! But, oh my god, who knows the second teacher also the same!!!

Okay, let's start with the first teacher. When he talks, there's like so much saliva at the corner of his lips. That's super gross okay!! Why can't he like get that saliva into his mouth? The worst thing is that his saliva problem is so bad that one of the saliva landed on my specs!!! EWWW !!! And, when four of his salivas finally evaporated from my table, another four landed again. And the saliva is like those very nourished and thick that kind eh... SUPER DISGUSTING EH !!!!! Somemore, his saliva really like never ending that kind, I still have to dodge. Okay, Adam also got....I saw it....

The second teacher not that bad lor... His saliva problem not that worse, but, still bad. I was like...listening and listening to him...then suddenly got like one drip of liquid fell on my chin...then i was like... EWWW !! WHATS THAT?!?!?!?!?! GROSSSSSSS !!!!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

MYOBBBBBB !!!!!
I just found out something which has been hiding from me for 1 year+ !!! Somemore, the thing is like known to 40 people?!?!?! Sia la, how come I don't know... So many people eh... AND AND AND, there's this guy(I won't say his name), actually know the updates in my freaking life !!!!!!! And I barely know him, and them.

It's so creepy when someone knows you, and your business, but you don't even have a single clue about them, or barely knows them.

AND !!! Today, my teacher don't allow me to go toilet when I was like urgent. She said, "Your recess is just over." SO?!?! It doesn't means that I have to go to the toilet during my recess, right? First, I don't need to use it at that time. Second, I scared she would scold me if I went to the toilet and was not punctual for her lesson. See, I so good, wait for her to come back then asked her permission.

The worst, my bag is going to be freaking heavy tomorrow. I have to bring like freaking thick double science and A maths books !!! omg!!! plus, my training stuffs...FREAK luh !!!!!! After training so tired already still need carry heavy bag !!!

Monday, January 4, 2010

First day of school

1. Never iron my uniform. Looks like a total FREAK!!! I thought the shop help us iron already, so never iron. Lucky Zheng Wei also never iron his uniform !!! HAHA !! But, we'll just going to end up as two untidy freakos who are sitting together......LOL!

2. The class super quiet!!! Teacher tried to make jokes to make us laugh, but failed. I really miss the GL people and the noise......

3. The English teacher, Mr Lam, has high expectations of us. (I bet he'll has to lower down his expectations after teaching us. HA!) Then, he started to say that grammar is too simple for us already. We should have known it and he'll never teach us that. (Well, guess he'll have to someday.) Then, Wei bin, Marcus and I smiled sheepishly at each other!!! (I failed Mr Edgerton's grammar test 2 times... But Marcus WORST, THREE times!!! Wei bin eh, C6 !!!) We're in for some...FUN!! yeah...

4. Zheng Wei and I will be partners ...well, hopefully for one week only. Because I kept trying to talk to him, then he either kept ignoring me or just gave me a monosyllabus like, "yes, no". ARGGHHHHH !!!

Sunday, January 3, 2010

*Currently using mobile*

I'm so glad that my faith had finally paid off; my judgement has not been wrong. And even more, when you could think things between us maturedly.

Your needs, your wants, you don't want them to burden me.

You don't hold the baton anymore. You have passed it. Its mine now. Even if you think i can't do it, i still have to do it. You can't run another round for me.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Although you have apologised, but I'm always a b*tch in your eyes. If you have once made me happy, why would I go around badmouthing you? I'm not that free...I still have a behaviour to watch over.

We're friends now, and you don't even have faith in me for one small issue...

No hard feelings.

P.S. Sorry for the bad words.
Friends?

I seriously wonder if my heart and mind are connected. Both of them are totally having different reactions, different thinkings. One wants to be strong, change into a completely new corrina and move on, while the other wants to maintain as the present corrina and continue to hope. Wait, not really hope in an one-sided thing. But, well, he also got helped in my hopes......

I really don't know what to do. My mind kept reminding me that his status is only a friend, that's why I'm very cautious with my actions and words to him. But, can my mind, my words, my actions change the way my heart feels? Or am I different in the inside and the outside? Will I say one thing and feel the other thing? I have lived in this body for 14 freaking years(reaching 15), but why can't I still understand myself?

Wait, no. Give up. Nothing more is going to happen. Corrina Tan, you're really so harsh on yourself. You know you are going to suffer if you want the best of both worlds.

Give me some time to think......

Friday, January 1, 2010

01/01/10

Something happened in my life on New Year. No matter how I tried to write it out, I just couldn't, and I don't wish too, for...what if it brought back awful memories? So I have no choice, but to use lyrics and two sentences of my own. Figure out all these unlinked stuffs by yourself(if you want).

You knew, He knew, I knew, but I chose to deceive myself.

花接受凋零,风接受追寻,心的伤还有一点不要紧,我接受你的决定。
你将会被谁抱紧,唱什么歌哄她开心,都不关我。

你的明天快不快乐,都不是我的。
我的明天快不快乐,都是我的。

That wave was not my 肯定, was not supposed to be the last wave.

时间把习惯欢乐,伤口愈合,也撤销我在想你的资格。

徘了 徊了 走了 錯了過了等了
累了全都困了 煩的亂的等的都
是真的

瘋的想的念的 不安的焦慮的
複雜的夢過的 擁有的失去的
怎麼忘呢

你做過的傷 放困了你愛的音
那天的我等著你等成了擺設

我的你的他的 好的壞的難的
灰的藍的黃的 酸的甜的苦的
都還記得

非常想要忘的 絕對不能忘的
我心要換你的 真的不行那麼
只得放了

環島的火車載著我第幾天了
忽然發現這一刻我不想你了

我的快樂 會回來的
只要清楚曾愛得那麼深刻
不准問值不值得
我的快樂 會回來的
離開不是誰給了誰的選擇

I have given it all, but sometimes, the decision and mindset don't only relys on you; the other half holds the card too. And when one wants head, one wants tail, someone has to give in. In this case, it is me. I respect his decision, for I know that if I hold on to my card, both of us will be hurt.

Till now, I still don't understand your actions. Why did you choose to give up? You don't even know the results, and nobody will, so why did you stamped us as "impossible"? Don't you regret giving up half way? In the past, you always thinks in this pessimistic and unconfident mindset, and how you thinks will eventually affect our future. I have tried to use my positive charge on your negative charge, but you refused to listen. Now, here lies your future, are you finally happy? I'm not.

But if it really makes you happy, I'll step out of your life. However, I can't make myself a stranger. I can't. I just simply can't. That's too........ Normal friends? I shall try... I shall try to control my head to not swivelled around as you passed...and those shameful tears of mine...

I stopped, took a step back, let you carry on with your life, and I'll get stronger in time to come.

说好的幸福呢,你反悔,返回,我该如何呢?守着我的话,还是,跟你一样呢?

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

WOOT!!! YAY!!! OH MY GOD!!! I CANNOT WAIT FOR TOMORROW TO COME!! THE PRECIOUS BOOK IS WAITING FOR ME IN CENTRAL PUBLIC LIBRARY NOW!!!

MY BELOVED BOOK, I WON'T LET YOU WAIT LONGGGGG!!! I'LL BE RUSHING TO YOU STRAIGHT IN THE MORNING..!!!...ALTHOUGH I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GO THERE... ARRGHHHHH!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHS !!! I THINK I'M GOING MADDDDDDD SOON!!!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHS!!!

Monday, December 21, 2009

YEAH! I felt so refreshed, after reading Hung's blog.

Guessed how many ex-classmates he had? Near to 4 digits. Imagined how tough is his life. Left his hometown alone, new country. And if these weren't enough, he still has to endure the constantly-changing environment. A new school for almost every year... Oh my god, I don't think I can even go through his first step; Surviving alone. *Cross my fingers for him*

Okay whatever. "CORRINA TAN!!! NO MORE PROCRASTINATION!!! TODAY IS A NICE DAY TO START ON YOuR DuSTY HOLIDAY HOMEWORKS!!!"

But first, let's go bath! :D

P.S. My freaking neighbour is pretty awful! From stepping into my room without permission to trying to make me fed up by imitating my laughter and my words and not to forget that she tried to peep into my things. I tell you, she's seriously bossy and insensitive. I finally understand how my brother feels. I wonder what my sister sees in her.

Oh well, let's cut the crap!!!!...and perhaps...procrastination. (:

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Everything has happened, or rather, is going to happen. It's too late to withdraw now. Too late to pass the baton to another much capable person. Let's just let nature take its own course. We have tried our best, and will still keep trying until tomorrow ends.

All of your intentions are good. I have never doubt that. I appreciate it instead. That's why I don't want to burden all of you. It's YOUR party. You should all enjoy it. I really don't mean to ruin it...

Saturday, December 5, 2009

7.30am wake up.
5 more mins to sleep, pleeeeease...
WAIT!
What?!! XXXX, XXXX and XXXX ?!?!!
TIO SHOCK !!
Cannot sleep anymore.
8am leave house to Harbourfront Station.
9.15am reach Mount Faber for training.
Training freeeeeaking GOOD ...
Steep slopes + Steep & high stairs
At the hardest slope, so tempted to walk, but didn't. However, I don't see any difference between running and walking....
I tell you what...THAT slope is completely meant for vehicles LOR!!!
10.30am training end.
Did you feel raindrops?
GREAT!
Rain heavily until we had to wait for shuttle bus to bring us to Vivo.
Reach Vivo, settle for Food Junction, and ate Padi Thai.
SUPER DELICIOUS !!!
After that, went with Nikki to shop at Mango.
JangWai and the others went to playground.
Bought a plain grey tanktop. Long-sleeve still need to consider.
Then, went Vivomart with Nikki and Shawn to buy drinks.
Purposely walked slowly to kill time to go up and out to join JangWai and the rest in the hot sun. Hahas !
Afterwards, the roof top with water. Okay, what's that called? Sky park? Well, who cares?
In the midst, Terry got angry then left because Kian Chong sabo him. What for sia...?LOL!!
Seriously pretty funny.
Okay, I'm a sadist. Maybe not.
Enough of the water and sun, then went in.
Suddenly, JangWai became mad.
Yeah, randomly suggested to watch movie--A Christmas Carol, 3D version.
Shawn determined not to watch, went home. Bye-Bye. LOL!
Queued so long in cinema, all to find out that tickets were sold out. Zzz!!
This was where the madness started!!!
Quickly went to the machine.
Checked and booked at the machine for the show at Marina Square.
Okay, where's there?
Trusted Kian Chong and took the train from harbourfront, switched to Dhobby ghaut, then finally, Marina Bay...
Got out from Marina Bay...
WOW !!
So empty...Only got constructions...
Where's the freaking Marina Square?
Went to ask the shuttle bus driver where the heck is Marina Square.
He replied,"City Hall mrt."
FAINT!~
And its 4.15pm already.
Show starting in 5mins time!!!
ARGHHH!!!
Kian Chong dashed across to the middle of the road and stopped the taxi in time.
Then he signalled for us, who were still at the pavement.
JangWai ran.
Then me.
And...OUCH!!! NIKKKKKKKKKI!!!!
She SQUASHED me !!!!!
Imagine 4 people got squashed at the back of the taxi.
Then when the taxi turned left, everybody's butts moved to the left, and Kian Chong was squashed!!!
Then when it's right, Nikki was squashed !!!
HAHAS !!! How hilarious !
Reached Marina Square, paid the driver, and dashed.
4.30pm.
Reached the theatre, guess what time?
4.35pm
Movie already started!!!
Missed the front part.
To me, the movie was rated 3/5.
Cannot say not nice, because I was shrieking and laughing during the show. Wait. Nikki TOO. Hahas!!! And my hands were like trying to grab the snow and stars! LOL!!
Cannot say nice, because I don't even get the storyline after the show end and I don't understand the accent...
Then, HOME SWEET HOME !!!
Okay, all right, almost spent 11 hours together with Jang Wai and Nikki today! Hmm..not really Kian Chong. He don't run with me...
So...
BATHE NOW !!!
TOODLES ! :D

Friday, November 27, 2009

I just visited a discussion board, with its subject about "Price of bilingualism". Here are its prices:

- 拔苗助长
- 望梅止渴
- 叶公好龙
- 一相情愿
- 自相矛盾

Okay, from the word "price", all are definitely not good ones. Whatever. However, I discovered one might apply to me. No, two. First, 叶公好龙. Second, 望梅止渴. Okay, three. Lastly, 自相矛盾.

Hmm...Is chinese hard? Okay, I know that was random. But, I guessed I just got it from the discussion board. ACtually, I really don't know. Or rather, I don't think so. I mean, it all depends whether you want to put in effort or not. Nothing is hard. It all depends on how your mind works. Okay, this really makes me reminds of the past.

When I was young, chinese was always in the "hatelist". I guessed it was more or less due to the english background I have at home. However, the friends that I made were all from chinese background, so I think that was the reason I was motivated to keep up. Okay, the actual turning point was in primary five.

After the streaming in primary four, I was offered the option of Higher Mother Tongue, although my Mother Tongue was poor. I remembered, that time, my mother leave the decision with me. She only said, "Higher mother tongue is tough, but, why don't you give it a try first? How you know you cannot cope when you haven't try?" And so, I decided to take up Higher Mother Tongue. On that day when I made the decision, I promised myself that I will work very hard and never regret, give up.

Starting of primary five, it was seriously not easy. Others got hanyu pinyin in their textbooks to help them with the chinese characters, but, mine only got chinese characters, completely NO hanyun pinyin. Initially, I was really stunned, then I thought to myself, "How can I study this? Worst still, get through this?" In one chapter, more than half of the words were anonymous to me. But, who knows, day by day, my chinese standard was actually improving. (:

In primary six, I still have difficulty in catching up, but, I realised I was starting to develop an interest in chinese. A liking. Before PSLE, I thought I will only get a "Pass" grade for higher mother tongue. Wait, no distinction. But still, managed to secure a Merit. Satisfied.

For English, the story is almost the same.

Now in Secondary Two, I really LOVE my language! And I prefer Mr Edgerton to Mrs Pathy for his proper teaching method in English and he taught me the importance of grammar. Thumbs-up! =D

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

All along, I have been thinking that there are no regrets in my life. Is that really so? Not really, I guess.

These few days, unfulfilled dreams haunted me again. I thought I have long gotten rid of it, but, by the look of it, so not. But, really, no point in giving it a go anymore. I'm too old. Bones stiffen. And too late, to begin. Even if I begin now, where will it bring me to? Nowhere. Its job will be just satisfying my years of thirst for it and well, to be frank, a waste of money. If only I have that much of courage and determination in my childhood to insist on my dreams and aspirations, maybe I will be somewhere in life now. And the money, I swear, it will never ever gone down the drain. What big words...but, it is more or less a fact for the money part, I guess.

I remembered clearly...Once or twice, I have brought it up. However, my parents just shrugged it off. "A waste of money". Their Answer. In four words. Maybe add in another 8 words. "How will it help you in your future?" There. I knew I was at a losing point. I was not being practical. Totally not. They were right. Although I still held on it for several months, nearly a year, I dared not voiced out anymore. Soon, secondary school work pushed it to the back of my mind.

Looking back now, a pang hit me. No, they were wrong. No, no, they ARE wrong. And I realised something: I have not given it up. It has been a long time since. Two years plus. Hello, Corrina Tan, what are you thinking of? Why haven't you forget about it? Do you ever think their mindsets have changed? Or do you think you are so free? C'mon girl! You have an "O" level the year after and you want to take up night class. Can you even cope in your studies and CCA first? No, right? Then why are you driving up to the idea of figure skating and dancing again? It is totally ridiculous.

Yeah...No... It is not ridiculous. Just that...it may sounds ridiculous. Perhaps I'm drifting off from reality again. That explains why I did not dare broach the matter up, right? But, you have to have faith and confidence in yourself. Nothing is impossible…

Hello! WAKE UP! This is not about whether it is a lack of faith, confidence or possibility. This is about reality. You know how hard is reality, eh? Reality lives 24 hours a day. And, ONLY 24 hours. No more. You've got to get this point STRAIGHT. And dreams are dreams. Reality is reality. You have to draw a line between them. They are NOT the same. You can have your dreams. But, you have to be realistic too.

But, what says dreams made what Thomas Edison is, what the world is now...

Yes, yes. Totally right. Unfortunately, it so doesn't apply in your case. Forget about it, seriously. The feeling is not real......

And so... You should have guessed which side won... The devil or The angel...

Should just lunch on something to make myself busy eh... Bye.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

ARGH! That feeling is active again! Woot! When was the last time it was active? Probably months or a year, when I was in sec 1, for as far as I could remembered.

The images of sprinting fiercely down the 100m lane, giving all for the last 100m of 800m, beating other runners, collapsing at the end of the race, walking proudly up to the stage, and finally, a golden medal being wore on you. Aww...isn't this the nicest feeling on earth? I swear I will be mad if that happens in 3-4 months time. Wait. Have I mentioned that this is only my dream for the 2010 Jurong Sec Sports Day?
Chey ! At least it is an accomplishment okays. And quite a huge one for me.

I mean, well, seriously, imagine how hard it must be to overtake all the sec 4s, especially WanPing. And the people from our school can really sprint. Next year will be a very challenging year! Plus, I will surely be in tip-top form at that point of time because National Cross will be just over.

Fine, I may not be a sprinter, but, it has been a dream for me since primary school. I MUST
take part in it, even though if it means that I will come in last and throw face. At least I have tried and truely enjoyed it, right? I don't see why pride should stand in my way of happiness.

Okay, enough said.
B GIRLS, HERE I COME ! :D